Monday, 18 November 2019

And I am in tears!

and I am in tears!
Oh, cmon, not visibly 
But if I spoke right now to anybody
They would probably know 
That I don’t have a bad throat...

I know why and then I don’t know,
I don’t know because I don’t want to...
that it will hurt, even more 
if I said it...
out loud
and then you come, do 
just that ....
And I am in tears! 

its nothing p.a.r.t.icular
compare, belittle, trash & repeat
that’s all of it, I guess
little by little
straining piece of me
from yourself 
And I am in tears!

knowing 
that what awaits me
without an end
with finer holes
in future
And I am in tears! 




Monday, 27 May 2019

did not know...!

And
the thought of
going away...

It popped up
Just like that
There
In that moment

Or so I thought ....I did not know!

Because
It can’t be,
Can’t be that way

It was there,
All along...
waiting for that moment!

Writhing under the skin
With all it’s might
To tear apart
 and show
itself
In its form...ugly or beautiful.. I don’t know!!


Would
You
leave
Me?
Ever!!


It’s important
To know
....and I did not know....!


Leaving
behind
Chaos
Apathy
And p.a.i.n

Announced,
Not to come back...

That thought,
Was there
Somewhere
In you
And .........I did not know!

Thursday, 28 June 2018

दर्द

शायद
यही है

शायद
ऐसे ही है

नियति
हाँ, वही

नियति
जिसमें दर्द है

बेइन्तेहाँ
दर्द

हर पल में
हर लम्हे में
बस
दर्द

कायनात के उस
ज़र्रे में
जहाँ
हम चाहते हैं
की ना हो



दर्द
वहां है तो बस
दर्द.........

Friday, 20 April 2018

स्पर्श

स्पर्श, आँखों से किया हमने उन्हें 
रोम से रोम तक, यहाँ वहां, जहाँ तहाँ 

गुलाबी पंखुड़ियों ये काली घटाओ तक 
सुंदरता से सुंदरता तक 

वक़्त के पद चिन्हों से 
समंदर की गहराइयों तक 

स्पर्श से स्पर्श 
करने की कोशिश 

पल में अनंत को 
जीने की कोशिश 

अंतर्मन से अंतस तक 
पहुंचने की कोशिश

नश्वर से अमर्त्य तक 
स्पर्श, अस्पर्श को एक ही पल में जीवंत,,आह,,,अहा,,,,,अद्भुत !

Thursday, 12 April 2018

in the times of hopelessness

frigid, is the feeling of skin, desired
with scaling layers of blood smeared 


burn, not physical, cover whole soul

and they said its un-burnable 


vindictive eyes bare it all

parched, without hope of gaze


cracking spouts, in licked creases

pleading, to drenches in gashing 

dried are nostrils, hurts to breath
heart is still.................so still

to hear if she is there...
if she calls his name.... at all.. may be... perhaps...!

Wednesday, 18 October 2017

गुफ़्तगू

क्या कहें  क्या ना कहें,
कुछ इसी गुफ़्तगू में हैं हम|

 आपसे नहीं अपने,
लफ़्जों से ख़फ़ा हैं हम |

समझना औ समझाना ,
हमारे बस में नहीं शायद

मुहब्बत पे ज़िंदा रहें ,
यही ताक़ीद होता है |

Sunday, 12 March 2017

Sad

it was not a choice 
like, to be or not to be 

the threads of my frame work
essence of my being 

when they realise upon me
it was already there, staring in silence

then I learned, I learned to read
and I thought I could fight

fight, the feeling of being sad
was I naive? may be or may be not

I learned to be not sad 
and then it pulled me back

like it never left 
from my realm, dripping from bones

I learned to flew and I flew high
was I puerile? may be or may be not

I felt I had to stop to fly
I was damned to come back

to the sad ground, 
where nothing grows and it just hounds

then it dawned upon me
the truth of the universe

seeds are in me, 
they just water them

cutting edges the cutting edge
they just show me the mirror

ugly and normal
pathetic, simply sad

should not it stop and
Lets just accept the fate! 




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